What if I lived without believing one lie? If I always believed I was beautiful. If I always believed I was a great mom. If I always knew what words to take in and what things to sift out. If my mind was stayed on the truth of Christ. If I always felt redeemed. If I always accepted the love that was given. If I never accepted anything less than joy. That would be a lot of work. And I should think it'd be worth it. When I try these things, when I live believing & I live as His creation... it is the best. We were not save to go on judging ourselves or one another. We were not saved to live in the depths of depression. We WERE saved to resist the lies of Satan, to cling to what is good and right and enjoy LOVE and GRACE. I have sung Jesus loves me to Hayley feeling plain bored. I have sung Jesus loves the little children while half asleep trying to get her to sleep. I sang those Jesus songs from my childhood to Jayden until the sun set and came back up again. I sing them every night hoping Hayley will remember. I sing it in the car when we're trying to make it into the city without chaos. And yet today I realize "YOU ARE PRECIOUS IN HIS SIGHT." Not just Hayley & Jayden & kids I've babysat... ME. I am. We are. You are. Not wretched... not failing... not average... precious. We are his beloved. He is ours. That is the truth. There is a crazy crazy cycle of lies and deceit that we don't even see in a day. There are lies I believe right now as I write that I don't even know are lies yet. But this I am certain of... we aren't meant to live this way.